What are you doing here?!?

So, school has started, and since I don't have a job yet, I've had some time to hang out on campus and help out with Navs and Welcome Week. But, I run into a lot of friends and acquaintances, and the question that comes out of their mouth, almost without fail is, "What are you doing here?!?"

Hey, it's great to see you, too! Ok, that was sarcastic on my part, and I really don't think that. But, seriously, I've been getting that question about 4 times a day. It's become kind of frustrating explaining myself and the situation I'm in. It is such a taboo thing to say I'm not doing "anything" right now.

Why do I have to explain myself? It's like I'm afraid people will think I'm a failure if they know I don't have a job yet. In reality, I've just been trying to follow the steps I feel God has been laying out for me. And it just so happens that means I don't have a job right now when most people do.

But what is it that's at the heart of my insecurity? And I think it's just THAT: security! We like to have security in life. We buy insurance for just about everything: our cars, our houses, our things, our health, even our life! If this or that goes wrong, I've got a fallback, right? Well, right now I'm kind of in a vulnerable spot...I don't have any health insurance and no job....which is a great source of the "security" we put our faith in.

When I think about it, it's funny. Because, really, what's the difference between me (without a job or insurance) and everyone who has a job or is in school? I think the big difference is that they have plans and I don't. Don't confuse plans with hopes, dreams, and passions. I have plenty of those. But plans, I am fresh out of. I've made them before. Guess what, they don't always work.

So, if plans don't always work, do I have any less security than anyone else? Just look at the economy. The biggest banks and insurance corporations in the country, and probably world, are collapsing everyday. The stuff we really put our security in is hardly trustworthy. Maybe that's why Jesus says not to store treasures on Earth where moth and rust destroy, and where theives break in and steal.

I'm putting my security in Christ. Even if it takes me to a place that doesn't look secure.

He hasn't failed me yet in 23 years.

"The mind of man plans his way, But the LORD directs his steps." ~ Proverbs 16:9